I opened up my Line account, yesterday. Had to open a new account. I named it TeresaMarie. Same name I had given one of my castles that I left behind when I quit playing Clash of Kings.
The app tried forcing me to go collect some pin number from my ‘other device’ before I could have my original account back.
That would be… two cellphones behind my life. I’m not even sure I still have the damn thing.
This request… from an android app. Amazing. Maybe I should go back to school and learn some tech geek… formalities. I’d be ahead of the game… with common sense.
We’re about to receive another Full Moon. Reaches our area at 8:34 am eastern time in the U.S.A. on Tuesday. This full moon is packed with more than the usual. Click here to gain a bit of insight.
We had a beautiful day today. We’ll have rain before I find my pillow tonight. We’ll have snow when I wake up. Welcome to East Tennessee. Ha!
I’ll be staying inside all day while it snows… having fun with more sewing! I like the fact that I’ve learned to set my boundaries when it comes to discussing all I am doing with my passion.
Which means I’m not sharing much. ;)~
I’m spending just as much time learning from other sources. There are so many special techniques that are necessary for all that I have in mind. I’m one who values the time I put into anything I do. So it only makes sense that I give it all the very best possible.
This is about… Me… my goal… My individuality. And this is on my terms.
Does this mean I’m some Control Freak? I can answer this honestly.
I am the first of all humans uncomfortable in the presence of my flaws that create dysfunction with others.
I haven’t pinpointed the exact moment when that flaw took a serious turn onto a more appropriate path. But I do know this. The opportunity was at the top of my list for my journey of reclaiming myself.
Said opportunity came once my divorce was final. Please take a moment and just… let that sink in.
“Why would she have to wait until….. Ohhhhhhhh!”
Yeah. I know. Be glad you weren’t the one having to wait.
Appropriate boundaries. This is about choices and decisions in my life that belong to me. My wish for a specific goal pertaining to my passion for sewing is one good example.
When it comes to relationships with my grown children… I am in need of separating myself from their lives at this time… in order to have a fair playing field for working on setting my own appropriate boundaries. A huge part of reclaiming myself.
Works differently for others… I guess. I don’t know. I only know this works for me.
I’m hoping my children will find interest in taking time to examine their own issues. There is a better chance with me out of the picture. Of course… we all have free will. Whether they take that opportunity… or not… is up to them and none of my business.
On the same token… the work I’m putting into my own self… is none of their business. Their opinions are none of my business… and vice versa.
I’m only responsible for myself today. And I am taking care of myself.
In simple terms… I have no desire to live the rest of my life as some mangled up friggin’ mess!
As for a love relationship with a partner… do I really need to say? Okay. For anyone that has not been around…
I am not ready.
And I have to be honest. There is only one soul on this planet that would even stand a remote chance in Hell. He’s nowhere to be found.
And he is neither of my two ex-husbands. Trust me.
It hurts. I don’t know what to do with it. I’m trying. It is a work in progress. Covering it in therapy. This man has affected my heart like no other man ever has.
I could win the damn lottery. And it would not come anywhere near affecting me as much as this… profoundly deep-thinking… ever-so-guarded man with a damaged heart holding sensitivity more delicate than rice paper.
This is a situation that only spiritualists… Empaths… Light Workers… Healers and such… would completely understand.
I am an Empath. Click here to read up.
Empaths seem to be delicious bait for Narcissists. Let me just put that out there. Click here for some great information on Narcissists.
Here on earth… we can release ourselves from each other… and vice versa. However… when The Devine has made the plans… He never fails. He sticks to His plans.
One way… or another… you will end up from Point A to Point B… which only He has decided upon. And His Divine Timing reigns over your schedule in life, as well.
In other words… whatever you try to fill your life with outside His plans… will be turned on its head. Nothing else will bear fruit. If your intuition has not moved you in line with Divine Timing for certain events… look out! He’ll make it happen. He will come in and toss your little apple cart upside down right before your eyes.
They call it a ‘Tower Moment.’ I have put myself through numerous attempts to walk away. I have faced these Tower Moments every time I have attempted to walk away from all feeling and emotions for this man.
I think both of us are very stubborn. I think it’s because we are so protective over our hearts. Because we’ve been hurt so many times. So deeply.
This New Moon and Mercury Retrograde passing through right now… has put me through Hell. The readings. I had to stop going to YouTube for any readings for Libra and Gemini.
Mystic Witch Tarot… I truly trust her. She helps me with my personal journey… as an individual.
Opal Oracle… Raaji! She is so awesome. She gets down to that Mother Earth Understanding and alignment with the Universe. And you really need some deep intellect to keep up with her.
Gemma at Gemstone Tarot… Daily Collective. The Collective refers to everyone in general. I can handle this right now. Gemma offers the astrological common sense core feel for us all. And she’s funny as all get-out!
Lucy at The Channel of Love… focuses on the twists and turns between Divine Feminine and Divine Masculine Twin Flames. She goes through her readings in Story-form. Her perspective has helped cool my jets… so many times.
All the others had me twisting like a pretzel… until I went into my own cards. You must be very careful when you begin plugging in to all those readings. And recently… legitimate Readers have busted some plagiarism. On most occasions… I will refuse to listen to any reader that already has cards laid out in placement.
I lean on God and The Universe. And before any church-goers begin coming at me like alligators… I’ll make a deal with you. You stay in your lane. I’ll stay in mine. And we’ll be just fine.
This is my blog. It is a tool that helps me in my healing. I get to share what I choose. Your opinion is none of my business. And I respectfully request that you keep your opinions in your own pockets.
I have found an even closer relationship with God… since going into Tarot. And I have seen the difference with an even deeper gift of Discernment. I am blessed much more by free will choices… rather than all the mental and emotional conditioning that has been bleeding all over this planet.
Just follow the money. “The things they say… just to fill up that damn offering plate!”
I lean on God. I lean on The Archangels. I lean on The Universe. I believe in them all… for protecting me and guiding me.
I will stand beside them… before standing beside you… no matter who you may be.
‘Nuff said. Back to the topic.
I know which path I am supposed to take. I am fine with this. I can wait on Divine Timing.
I have plenty to keep me busy preparing. And I am moving forward.
I feel him. He comes to me. That Mental Telepathy. He knows. He’s always known. And he knows how to use it.
The tables are turned now. That damn game. He knew how to contact me outside Clash of Kings. I gave him everything.
Some people are probably thinking right now… “If he wanted to contact you… he would.”
Well… Yeah. You think I don’t know that? I know this better than you. Because he’s done so in the past.
But I also understand Divine Timing. I understand there being reasons for separation. I understand the concept of both of us being on our own journey. Both of us being guided through lessons and healing… before God decides the time is right.
Imagination? No. You have to feel what’s going on inside you without any self-inflicted provocation. That’s called The Knowing. Unexplainable feelings and emotions that overwhelm you. You can be in the middle of doing anything… cleaning house… working on a car when it just comes out of left field.
It’s him. That’s when the telepathy kicks in. That’s when I can feel him. At times… I have to stop whatever I’m doing. The feeling becomes so strong.
And yes. I answer. With love.
I miss him.
I miss those conversations when we were both present… at the same time. Seeing those words typed… back and forth between each other.
I miss the fun we had. Turning typed words into food fights… and water hose fights… and cooking in the kitchen.
He described so well… the two of us sitting on a blanket… out in the sunshine… eating frozen yogurt. I could see us.
We shared time talking about other things. I choose to keep those between us… for him.
Okay… I still say I could cook a steak better than him.
Just to be clear… nothing in the gutter existed. We have some really nasty… vulgar pigs on the internet. But this man….
This man is way above that.
I loved talking with him. Because he helped me see so many things from a different perspective. It made me want to learn more from his perspective.
I loved talking with him. Because he showed me I was worth being trusted to know some of his troubles. I’m forever left feeling so honored that he felt that safe and comfortable with me.
I loved talking with him. Because he helped me see the difference between a caring man… and a twisted narcissist.
I loved talking with him. Because he helped me believe I can do anything.
I loved playing Clash of Kings with him. Because he was the one that helped me find my own strength and power. So many values in life are what this man shared with me… reassured me that a man can be capable of maintaining self-respect… dignity… honor.
He showed me so much of himself in that damn game.
I learned about loyalty through the game… from him. Because he showed me at the expense of his own loss of power. He honored me with a deep secret about his true authentic self.
He was gentle with my concerns… my wishes. He would wait until I slept… before going off around the kingdom to do his attacking of other castles to regain his power. Never in front of me. Never while I was awake… sans the Conquest.
Yeah. I knew! But I wasn’t about to spoil all that fruit!
Always protective over me… in a game. And through a game… this man showed me the best of his heart and soul. Because of everything I learned… I know there are things about his life he has kept from me… to protect me and keep from hurting me.
Because that’s who he is.
I miss talking with him… because I had to learn that he was too damaged and caged up with fear… from being so undeservedly hurt.
I miss talking with him… because I was in such a blind rush with wanting to show him deserved love that he was in no shape to handle.
He hides in a castle… just like me. A safe place from any further hurt and pain.
His castle… much larger than mine.
His Drawbridge… much stronger with an even stronger lock than mine.
His moat… He knows I can’t swim.
And I refuse to drown… knowing everything I’d be taking with me.
My intention for this Full Moon… the day he comes to my castle and yells for me.
Like me… he cannot swim. Yes, that would be one of the good misfortunes we have in common. LOL
But I would know it is him. And I would drop whatever I may be in the middle of handling… and set down that drawbridge before my second breath.