I’m Gonna Be Okay

I got the back windshield replaced on my Putt-Putt!!!

I’m so tickled!  Next on the list… having it Detailed.  And then… we head up to Rusty Wallace KIA in Alcoa.  The usual mileage maintenance… brand new passenger side mirror assembly… and 4 brand new all-weather tires!

I’ve been knocking out lists since last Tuesday.  Just… taking care of business.  Doing the right thing.

Deposited the rent into my landlord’s bank account.  Mailed off a cashier’s check to pay back my aunt and uncle.  Bought a new mail box.  I’m hoping and praying I don’t have to cut off a portion of the 4″ x 4″ post that’s already there.  Otherwise… I may have to cave in and go pick up one of the power tool bundle sets from Lowe’s a little earlier than I wanted.

But the lists never end.  Yes, indeed.  And I’ll just keep knocking them out.

It feels so good to watch every task disappear.  I feel lighter every time I scratch through one of the items.  I’ve been running my butt all over the place… taking care of a lot of things… besides what I mention.

But… That’s who I am.

And still… I made time to reach out to somebody really wonderful… somebody so important in my life… with some truth… only out of love.

Seeds are planted.  Ball’s in their court.  You can lead a horse to water, but you can’t make them drink… and all that yada-yada stuff.

From this point… I’ve done my part.  They’re in God’s hands.  But I will always pray for them.  And I will always love them.  This person deserves to find healing and truth.  They deserve to find peace that stops all the running from themselves.

It’s not for me to sit and wait.  I move forward.  God says, “Well… We tried, Hon.  Maybe in the next life.”

And I’m perfectly okay with that.

I deserve to be happy.  I deserve love.  I deserve being Teresa.  I deserve to have fun!  I deserve getting back out there in this world and plugging in, again!

I’ve been looking back… trying to figure out where the electric cord fell out of the wall of life in my journey.  Ya’ know?  Where did that first step away from being so comfortable in my skin take place?

When I uprooted and left Manteca, California… May, 2000.  I never should have done that.  Like falling into an old abandoned water well with no bottom.

Would I do it today?  HAHAHAHA!  Are you kidding me?

I love living in East Tennessee.  It’s meant for me to be here.

I can feel that this morning.

This… is the good that has come out of a really dark 19 years of my life.

I’m never giving this up for anybody.

Too many gorgeous roads around here for two wheels!  Too many good people!

Too many great possibilities!

And being kind is received by others with warm hearts and open arms.

Being Kind… On the top of… My Forever list!

But take notice…

This wench isn’t sitting on any railroad tracks!

RECIPROCITY… Look it up in the Dictionary.  This world survives on love… gentleness… kindness.

Try dishing out some of your own!