It’s raining this morning. I can barely hear it hitting the house. And the goosebumps are driving me nuts!!
Oh, my gosh… I will NEVER live in another house with a tin roof! I have fallen back in love with composition shingle roofs.
Even Carlie notices. She didn’t quite know what to think when I opened the front door to let her outside. Been a while since we’ve had any rain here.
Thank God… no more need to dish out the yogurt to her… laced with CBD drops!
Rough weekend for me. I’m grateful for its passing.
Emotions everywhere. Crossroads. Do I let go? Do I not? Sobbing… soaking my T-shirts. Anger… frustration… hurt… pain… fear. The Full Monte.
But when the end of Sunday approached…
I watched WaterBaby Tarot’s Libra reading for Oct. 12th – 21st… before my routine of writing down things I’m grateful for… just before I go to bed.
BEST way this weekend could ever have closed out!
Thank you so much, Lady!
The reading reminded me of something I figured out such a long time ago.
Many people ridicule my raw openness and honesty. “Such an idiot… throwing all your dirty laundry out there to the world!”
Yeah, right. Truth is… you only THINK that’s ALL my dirty laundry! ROTFLMAO!
Uh-huh. You know what they say about people in glass houses… right?!?
Anyway… she reminded me of how I came to my conclusion behind my choice of being so open and honest. Not only with myself… but also with the world.
The secret… Okay. Alright. So there can’t be a secret in this. Anyway… The bright light bulb (is that better?) sits behind my personal relationship with God. This is a strong subject in my life.
And the Queen of Swords comes out to defend on this one… very solidly. I live to protect my relationship with God.
God knows me better than anyone else on this planet. And at the end of the day… He will be the one I answer to when I leave this life on this planet.
Nobody else.
He already knows the path I’m headed down. He’s already decided when my time will come for the end of my journey.
He already knows what’s inside my head and heart… before anything comes out of my mouth.
He knows all my feelings. (Think twice, now… there is a difference from the sentence above.)
He knows I’m not perfect… I’m human. And THAT makes me perfect in His eyes. He knows I have faults. He knows I make mistakes.
He knows my struggles inside my mind and heart.
Since God already knows all this… who cares about everybody else in this world throwing stink bombs… caused by their own choices of not diving deep to see all the convoluted conditioning shoved into minds for money?
The fact that they haven’t taken the time to figure it all out… that’s their problem. Not mine.
Again… follow the money. Those damn money mongers.
So… why hide anything?
You can’t hide from God, Silly!
Why fight and deny all the struggle on the inside?
It takes more energy keeping all that crap caged up in a heart and mind. My cartoon imagination gives me this view of God… sitting in a lawn chair… watching someone tangle with all this crap inside. Trying to fight it all… run from it… hide… deny… fear.
And God just sits there… watching. One leg crossed over the other. Foot bouncing up and down. Shaking his head gently… side to side. Grinning.
When those truths and feelings are all about positivity that can bring happiness… no barking negativity from anyone else on this planet matters… when you have The Number One King on your side.
Learning this… practicing this… brings so much light into my world.
Yes. Crap will always come around. This is not about building some cannon to rid the world of evil. It’s about finding the truth you can depend on… for where that safe place exists… where you are more than welcomed to become your own true self.
I remember growing up… LOL… have you ever been around somebody that looked you in the eye and said… “You’re not God!”
Ha! Guess what… That would be me.
And… if anybody is choosing to remain snarling at me for… ‘throwing my dirty laundry out there’… why are you so afraid to learn something from my experiences that just may free up your own world?
I do this out of kindness and love.
What’s wrong with giving kindness and love?
Who’s really the confused soul here?
Just sayin’.
My world is free. God knows when I love someone. God knows when I’m feeling hurt… angry… frustrated… confused. There’s no reason for me to hide anything.
Confusion… is my worst challenge. I’m a Libra. Balance. Truth. Honesty. I live with the goal and wish to do only the right things in life… according to what God intends for my journey.
My goals… come easy. My wishes… can be a challenge. And for me… God knows I will go to fellow Light Workers and my own cards to find His messages for me.
I will dig deep… deeper… as deep as need be… until He gives me that feeling in my gut and the peace in my whole being.
He knows me. He knows I strive to do and be the best of all good… for my highest good… and the highest good of all.
I have no qualms about loving someone. When that person is a good soul… worthy of love… why not?
My purpose in life includes sharing in this blog. Somewhere out there… a soul on this planet needs the support and encouragement. They’re seeking the same truth.
This world is upheaving all the evil that’s been brewing underground… this very moment. God is taking the reins! He’s getting the last word! And it’s going to be nothing less than good!
God bless Greta Thunberg!
There is hope. This is kindness.
We all need a hand-up with understanding… and acknowledging… the reality of all that’s going on in this world right now.
How about offering some reciprocity… by spreading some kindness of your own!
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