I always draw my cards after I write my post. It’s this little thing between God… all the Angels… my Spirit Guides… and my family that has crossed over to the other side. I wish somebody else had been here to witness this! It happens every time!
Today has been one of those ‘new type’ of days I have welcomed into my life. Going into my own world… alone… and feeling nothing but peace and hope… confidence.
I’ve been very busy… making room inside the house. Selling off a few things… giving away other things. All in preparation for setting up this house more efficiently and according to scale… for reaching my goals.
I’d love to start painting this place! And the carpet. Ick! I despise carpet. But that too… must wait. Unfortunately… I experienced a very hard lesson after jumping that gun back in 2006. I’m feeding my strength to hang in there until the ink dries at closing on the purchase.
During this waiting game… it feels like a cleansing is happening in my world. New furniture. Revamping some storage shelving for more appropriate utilization in my sewing room.
Making room for my birthday gift to myself… an indoor exercising bike that works on strength and cardio. And a new sofa.
All of this fits into the Big Picture of my new life. I get to choose my own style of sofa. I’ve been able to purchase the exercising equipment that TERESA knew she needed for her goal… rather than settling for less in the fight for half-ass that Dwayne always insisted upon.
I don’t know why I specify Dwayne in the matter. Maybe because he’s the one that happened to be involved in the scenario? Could have been any other partner with the same mentality. But then again… Now I’d be packing their bags for them… much earlier before reaching any such point.
So I guess I should thank him for that lesson.
But my life is about me now. For a change. For the first time in my life.
I’m not hurting anybody. I’m not coming up pregnant. I’m not going to jail.
I’m paying my bills. I’m taking care of priorities. I’m mapping out my goals.
I’m giving back to the universe. And I’m letting go of all that no longer serves my highest good… and the highest good of all.
Even inside my heart.
I feel there’s no reason to waste my time anymore. I’m seeing no reason to hold off cleaning house inside my heart and making room for the love I deserve.
Crickets are for fishing. Not for keeping a loving heart company.
I think I’ll take off in the early morning and go visit the Bears at Cades Cove!! Take the backroad to Pigeon Forge… enjoying all the river scenery. Spoil myself with lunch at The Old Mill. Who knows? I just may go crazy at The Old Mill Candy Kitchen!
Hey… I might run into that Blonde-headed Blue-eyed Park Ranger again… too! And this time… I won’t forget to take his picture. Swap names? LOL ;)~
Anything is possible.
“Jus’ sayin’!”
Just jokin’! Most likely… he’s already got a better half!
Gosh, I love living in East Tennessee!
My Morning's Heart 